Dancing In the Rain

Day 30: Joy.

laurfarrar — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 15:43:17 +0000

like piano keys
twinkling as the stars
filling my heart
light, airy
soft and sweet
peace
moonlit walks
gentle breeze
take me in
take me home
keep me safe
keep me whole.

Day 29: Pain.

laurfarrar — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 14:55:20 +0000

pricks
stabs
scratches
racing up my side.
gasp
collapse
grimace.
frustration
too much
can’t take it
give up.

Day 28: Beautiful.

laurfarrar — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 01:12:37 +0000

glorious smile
deepest eyes
softest hair
gorgeous heart
reaching out to save
heal and help
erase the pain

Day 27: Diamonds.

laurfarrar — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 05:46:34 +0000

Pieces of my heart
scattered across the ground
mixing with ashes
tears and blood
stain the shards
with pain.
words cease
as torture explodes
searing through
my soul
pieces everywhere
out of my reach
no way to heal
no way out
please
save me
before I
self-destruct.

Day 26: Would It Matter At All

laurfarrar — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 04:33:01 +0000

does anybody care
is anyone there?
insignificant
insufficient
crying myself to sleep
wondering if anyone
would even
notice
if I disappeared
forever.
slipped away
without a prayer
seeking acceptance
approval and grace
gaining laughter
ignorance and dismissal
the mess inside my soul
is pulling me down
the only way out
seems to be closer
than you’d think.

“If I wasn’t here tomorrow would anybody care
If my time was up I’d wanna know
You were happy I was there

If I wasn’t here tomorrow would anyone lose sleep
If I wasn’t hard and hollow
Then maybe you would miss me”

-Skillet, “Would It Matter”

Day 25: Desperation.

laurfarrar — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 00:57:55 +0000

darkness.
weighted like bricks
pushing me down
face nearly touching
the ground.
pieces
scattered
across the soil
holding the shreds
of my bleeding heart.
needing release
begging forgiveness
breaking down
tears flowing
fist clenching
face contorting
how can my heart beat.
how can my soul speak.
I don’t feel whole.
I am so alone.
It’s dark and I’m scared
I won’t get out alive.

Day 24: Time.

laurfarrar — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 21:30:36 +0000

running out
spreading ahead
ticking away
in time
out of time
too close
too far away
it’s all so confusing
don’t let me run out
of time.

Day 23: peace.

laurfarrar — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 15:19:49 +0000

rush of wind
blows on my face
wisps of sunshine
embrace my soul
tender touches
filled with light
hope shines
into my night.

<3

laurfarrar — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 05:22:16 +0000

Day 22: Puppy

laurfarrar — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 16:23:02 +0000

softest silk
fur colored milk chocolate
deepest sad eyes
curled
cuddled
feeling your heart beat
warmest
alive